Preaching To Self

I have to be honest, ... I'm not really feeling very thankful today.  It's been a challenge all day long for me to look for and find God's gifts for me in the daily ins and outs.  I feel the overwhelming wave of anxiety washing over me today with the, "I just can't do this all on my own" set on repeat in the recesses of my brain.  I'm feeling discontentment with a few things in my life today.  I'm feeling frustrated and tired.  I had a difficult drive to and from class, which makes an already long afternoon and evening, longer.  I couldn't get my mind and heart to set on praying for the duration of the drive time...  so I ended up turning on a local Christian station and this song came on:

This song always "gets me" and tonight was no exception.  It sucker-punched me right in the gut and made me focus on God's sovereignty and that His hands are in all the details of life - good and bad.  The end especially resonated with me today:  What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?  What if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights, are your mercies in disguise?"

THIS WORLD IS NOT MY HOME.  

I immediately came home and referred to a chart that I came across a few days ago on facebook... 

I went directly to the scriptures to remind myself what God says when I say I'm too tired, It's impossible, I'm not able, I can't go on, and I can't manage.  I felt peace wash over my heart that He will give me rest, that WITH HIM all things are possible, that He is able to make all grace abound to me, so that I may abound in every good work, that His grace is sufficient for me, and He will truly supply all my needs.  

100.  I'm thankful for God's timing, encouragement, and Word.

101.  I'm thankful for the challenging day to remind me to rest in Him for ALL things -- and that I need not try to do it all on my own. 

102.  Though I don't always understand the "why" I'm there, I'm thankful for the grad class - and pray the Lord will use it to teach me, mold me, and draw me closer to Him. 

103.  I'm thankful for the place God has called me to and pray that He will help me to be content.  

"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Cor. 12:9-10